I went to bed last night feeling very uneasy, and not exactly sure why. There are so many things going on right now, but nothing had changed so I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. I went to bed, hoping I would feel better in the morning.
No such luck. I woke up feeling worse than the night before. As usual, I was the only one awake. I tried to fall back to sleep, but again, no such luck.
I quietly made my way downstairs and put on Good Morning America. I don’t often watch the news, but I try to when I can. So, since the girls were not awake, I decided to tune in and see what was happening. So much sadness and scariness and unknown. It did not help the anxiety.
Eventually, Jim and the girls joined me downstairs and I turned off the news. Gratefully, Jim stepped in today and helped me out. I took time to work on my puzzle. It was while I was working that Izzie said not to look at what she was doing, so I didn’t. When she finished, she handed me a drawing she had created, of me and her, saying “Feel better soon mommy.” It melted my heart. She knew that I needed something to cheer me up and she put a smile on my face.
It is so true that our children tune into our feelings and can often read us better than we can read ourselves. While the note didn’t take the anxiety away, it sure did let me know how loved I am. I have someone in my corner who truly cares for and about me.